Lost

The feeling; not the show. I’m feeling quite lost at the moment. It’s just so weird to be home. I love my family, but I don’t think I can live with them for another 10 years or so. Of course, I had to Google all my feelings:

According to Globalinks, experiencing reverse culture shock is extremely common and may include any to all of the following emotions:

• Restlessness, rootlessness
• Reverse homesickness-missing people and places from abroad
• Boredom, insecurity, uncertainty, confusion, frustration
• Need for excessive sleep
• Change in goals or priorities
• Feelings of alienation or withdrawal
• Negativity towards American behavior
• Feelings of resistance toward family and friends

Obviously not feeling all of the symptoms, but yeah, I think my feelings can be summarized as reverse culture shock.

I was also reading this great article in the New York Times, about 20-somethings who experience “both excitement and uncertainty, wide-open possibility and confusion, new freedoms and new fears”. I’m just feeling the uncertainty part, and none of the excitement part. Alienation ftw!